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The List of What happened to TGWTS Girl

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 29, 2011, 2:20 PM
  • Mood: Mortified
  • Listening to: Brandi Carlile
  • Reading: Oscar Wilde - Complete Collection
  • Drinking: Red Bull - SugarFree



All of these lines across my face - Tell you the story of who I am



So I get hundreds of sweet and caring (and probably a little bit curious;)) questions about what happened to me, some people even try guessing before asking ;) I am very grateful for all the amazing, beautiful support from everyone and I am so thankful all the stories of other peoples strifes and troubles and that some of you feel comfortable telling me your stories :heart: The Letters from those of you struggling with Body Images really ReallY inspire me to keep on creating this series and I hope one day everyone will feel as beautiful as I do in their skin.

Everything about me is a story of who I am, what I have overcome, what I battle and struggle with everyday, and I am so Proud of my body cause my handicap is a reminder everyday that I am alive :heart: And I don´t know what is more beautiful than being Alive and still kicking :heart:

´I´m Beautiful in my Way - Cause God Makes no Mistakes´



TGWTS XXVI by dark-angel1349TGWTS XXX by dark-angel1349TGWTS XXVII by dark-angel1349TGWTS II by dark-angel1349


BUT from Serious to Utter SillyNess! ;) :giggle: Me and my family and friends do have fun coming up with stories to tell about how I ended up with over 40% my body cut away. I am missing 30 % of my muscles and 30% of my Lymphatic system, 40 % of my Skin tissue and I have 50mm of skin transplanted and covering my entire abdomen and partially my back, with nothing else holding my intestines and skeleton together. And a medical miracle and IMMENSE training and everyday hard workout on account of the motivation from my amazing 3 year old Angel Athena Benedicte :heart: :floating: :heart: I can walk even tho I have nothing from beneath my breast and dug out lymph and muscles from underneath the skin layer, used for my abdomens donor transplant, from my thighs to knees.


But Yes THE LIST:


In no specific order

1.     Did you do that yourself?  (BEST EVER GUESS, Still cracks me up:D)

2.     I´m Australian so obviously, Shark attack.

3.     I answered Armin Meiwes, Personal Add and we had a lovely dinner, eating ME! ;).

4.     Burn victim (an obvious guess)

5.     I was in the filming of Piranha. It went horribly wrong.

6.     I sold all my disposable organs, and the surgeon was a bit dodgy and ´trigger happy´.

7.     I was inhabited by a  "Goa'uld".

8.     I did an ozzy, Ate a bat, but it went bad, the bat wanted out.

9.     I tried suicide on the railroad tracks, I survived. (this actually happened    with a  friend and now he has no legs :sadangel:...)  

10.    Dont drink Acid kids, it wont go well.

11.    I got gangrene in my bellybutton.

12.    An infection gone BadAss.

13.    I am a Zombie attack survivor.

14.    Nectrotizing Facilitis.

15.    I tried out a Liposuction Home-kit.

16.    I really wanted a date with Marilyn Manson. (I wouldn´t have said no;) :P but it isn´t  what happened;))    

17.    Bear Wrestling.

18.    A magic act gone wrong.

19.    In the real life Chainsaw massacre.

20.    I have an enemy who´s kick ass at Voodoo.

21.    I´m so Intense at the Butterfly! (swimming)

22.    When I was a teenager I was a Witch and tried out a Thinner Spell

23.    The tattoo artist misunderstood when I came inn and asked for Scarification.

24.    Given birth to a "Screamer" (- the  movie Screamers)

25.    I got stranded in the mountains after a plane crash, and I pulled the shortest straw.

26.    Napalm.      (ooooh still not quite funny that... sorry bout that)

27.    I got sick of my old look, so I changed it up abit.

28.    Picasso was in charge of my designing in heaven that day.

29.    I had sex with SuperMan.

30.    I actually AM Urania Blackwell (aka ElementGirl)

31.    Sweeny Todd didn´t get to finish me off.  

32.    ´It rubs the lotion on it´s skin.´   (necessary link: www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDgS6q… )

33.     Went hunting with Dick Cheney.

34.     I am a clone.

36.     I am Bionic.

37.     I am here for John Connor.

38.     Intimate game gone wrong. (To hot Wax)

39.     Used to be a Police Canine trainer.

40.     Setting Fire to your guitar on stage isn´t as easy as it looks.

41.     Some exotic, never heard of disease.

42.     My Belly Exploded when I gave birth.

43.     God said SMITE them! and he meant me.  (Don´t tell lies or you´ll Pay one day;))

44.     New Years Fireworks Accident.

45.     Werewolf accident. Full Moon tonight. Watch out ;)

46.     Research tatoo´s before you get one.

47.     Born a siamese twin.

48.     Welcome to Fight Club. The first rule of Fight Club is: you do not talk about Fight Club. .........The second rule of Fight Club is: you DO NOT talk about Fight Club!  

49.      I fell asleep in a tanning bed.

50.      When I saw you my Heart fell and jumped out of my body for me to give to you.








....... and the list goes on and on ..... if you have any good guesses, please do tell ;) :giggle:



The real reason Might be there, Might not. Doesn´t really matter why I am this way to you, but that I love my body and am proud of this body God made just for me matters. And when you look in the mirror next time,  Remember BEING ALIVE is beautiful. You can make Anything happen as long as you ARE ALIVE! :floating:




:kiss:



Togetherness by dark-angel1349
All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
Oh but these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

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End of the World News

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 4, 2011, 3:45 PM
Now it´s been 6 years........ :sadangel:

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So tomorrow it's been 5 years. I can't really even believe it. When Jon died I didn't think I was going to be able to live anymore. And for years I kind of didn't. I did so much that I'm not proud of, not bad stuff you know? .. but a friend of mine called it a spiritual holiday :blush:

Cause I've always been a very devoted christian. And God has had this amazing role in my life, leading me through pain and fire.

But Jon was an atheist. And I respected that so much case he was one of the most amazing people I've ever known. And his entire life was as good and amazing as God could ever have asked of him. So even tho he didnt know it, he was the best christian I have ever met:) He cared about everyone and helped everyone.. and it may have wore him out.. but I had nothing but the most respect and admiration for what a amazing person he was. And that he wanted to share his life with me. Was mindblowing, Cause I thought I was never good enough for him. And at the time I probably wasn't or he would still be here.

Forever forever together best friends by Mr-E-is a long time

But anyway 5 years. fleeting around the world, being everything I'm not. hurting people I should have loved cause it just didnt seem real. And I was to much of a coward to kill myself and made life hell instead of going there, maybe.... :heart:

Athena, she saved my life. litterarly. Hadn't I had her I would have died and I just know that on the beaches in Samos where I was staying at the time...  I went to the catholic church on the top of the hill every day praying. And I was reading The witch of portobello, and suddenly  I got this immense feeling I was destined to have this child. that I had to make her. I didnt know why and I was terrified.. until I was certain I had been called to have her. And it saved my life. And it gave me her to make me want to have the life I had been given as a new start :heart:

And here I am. A mother. to this beautiful amazing wonderful child. She has his blue piercing eyes, and blond perfect hair, and she's so tall and long and kind and  smart and loving and careful(she's so tenderly careful with everything she does, she's so much like him, (not Jon's child) and I have to believe God did that to keep me fighting.

My very art itself by dark-angel1349

Knowing that she needs me. and that I can teach her to make the world a better place. To guide her to her fate. to never give up. To always fight for the change and good in the world. And even the darkest places in life are there to guide us to make us grow and that one day this world will be clean of fear, fighting, hate. One day if we all teach our children from our mistakes, our lives. We can make a new tomorrow a new life. where people as amazing as Jon would never die, cause we dont leave anyone behind. And we have to take responsabilty for the fact that we are all family. that we are all humans. not races. not political parties. We are all exactly the same. born with the same start place. its that we forget that that is ruiining our world.

The bible says. We are one army.

Why dont remember this. that even a stranger is closer to you than you can even imagine. that we all have to love eachother and stick together. to treat everyone next to you, like you love them. cause you do. They are your brother. and they are your sister.


Us :heart:

Im going abit off to lalaland babbebling. scuse me.

I know Jon's with God now, because I know he told me this was going to be ok,and not to be scared. He held me in my dreams and kept me safe.

And when I was dead. He was there. And its been 5 years. 5 whole years. And I miss my coma. And I wish alot of times I was back there. cause there I could be with him. And feel that safety again. Cause being alive is so terrifying. Your always so stupidly afraid of dying.

And in my life that might be abit more real now .. since Ive been dead 3 times.. I know my luck is running up..

anyway Im babbeling. and telling alot about myself. and leaving out things that would make what I'm telling more understandable... :heart:

But .. ehm. 5 years.


I want so many things to be different .. but the only thing I really would want to change in life, is that I had been there, watching a movie on the laptop in bed. That he hadn't died. He could have said he never wanted to see me again, left me.  That would be ok. If I got a phone call today saying PSYCH!!! Im in Tibet! I'd be so happy. knowing he was in this world, and that his lap was there to crawl up onto when things are hard. Cause it's the only lap I've ever crawled up too... :heart: :blackrose: :heart:

But God and destiny doesnt work like that .. you never get what you ask for. But you always get what you need. and everything Ive done that was stupid. led me to Athena. And she is something celestial.

......I do Believe in Fairies by dark-angel1349

when I prayed for the virtue of patience when I was pregnant and afraid of being a over intense person who moved when the wind changed and fleeted from person to person promising them love I didnt have to give... That darned Bonham gypsy blood .. heh.. :bulletpink:

God gifted me with a coma .. a long one.. and he took away my memories so I only remember a highlighted version now of my life. and he let me be with Jon for a month ( and it felt like a lifetime, cause it was. I cant explain how a coma works but its like your alive just like it, but it goes so much faster you are anywhere, everywhere.. I remember everything from my coma, now in this life. and I dont always know if this is real. cause this is something I would do in my coma. Babble and cry cause Im scared of tomorrow. )

anyway I prayed for patience and I got a coma and got a long time to learn to write, then speak .. then sit up.. and then practicing standing .. and then I learnt to walk.. and I learnt that I had daughter all over again.. when I fell asleep she was 3 weeks old. She looked so different, so old. ... and Jon I miss you. And I have nothing but patience now. And I would a great girlfriend ..  .. now. :blackrose:

You were the only person I ever let get to know me, and the only person I felt like loved me for me ... and you're gone.

why the hell would you have left.

I wouldnt have my life now if not. and Im thankful for that God.
God, Dont misunderstand.. ( Then God probably cannot misunderstand )

But.. Jon ... I think he might be the only person who's ever really loved me.. and so much more than I will ever deserve. And I pray to God every night that  Athena , my daughter, will be a good person, a person like you. and I tell her every night about you.. cause we talk to the star sky that we project on the ceiling and we pray for the people we love that we name the different stars as, and I tell her about them, family, friends... the begger we walk by to church..

Love everyone. cause everyone is amazing to someone and never let them think that they are alone because they never will be. and when they called and told me  Jon had been found. and that stupid shot gun I told him not to own .. ... I just wish .. I wish he would have asked me. If I still loved him. Cause I would have never let him go. I would have held him forever and let him know. that He was my everything.

And Athena is now. She is my everything. I couldnt even imagine. mothers love is overwhelming. and God do I love her. She is.. perfect. from her dimples to stars in her eyes...

It's my future by dark-angel1349

It's just so complicated. cause Im so afraid of letting her down, of having to leave. cause every death has a lesson learned. and I know that could be a destiny too.

but I hope she never has to know.

So Jon? as long as God lets me Ill be here... And I want to be alive. And I'm so sorry for that. Cause .. A HUgE part of me would give anything to be there with you..

Im sorry you watched me get so sick.. Im so sorry I wasnt there enough for you when you were sad. Im so sorry I didnt tell you how much I loved you... Im so sorry I wasn't ready for everything you needed. ... Im so sorry that your dead and Im still alive. ..
and Im sorry that I didnt love you enough. Im sorry I didnt know how much you meant to me til after you were gone, I didnt even imagine I could love you as much as I do :heart:

Jon ? You'd love Athena.



Athena Just woke up from her nap. She's lying here now on my lap all warm and fuzzy.. with blue china eyes (those squinty eyes you get in the morning)And Jon I'm sorry... But 5 years.. I pray for 5 more... and know I miss you more every single day. And I cant wait to be with you again... (so hard to say) .. but I have to wait ... for my time ... :heart: :kiss:

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.


Love Notes:

:iconmr-e-: Wuw yu pwincess
from ~Mr-E-
to =:icondark-angel1349:
Thanks for a wonderfull :date: You have my :heart: and always wil :kiss: Love you so much :kiss: :kiss: :kiss:



:iconmr-e-: Re: (no subject)
from ~Mr-E-
to =:icondark-angel1349;
Your so sweet!!!!!! :kiss: :hug: :heart: :kiss: You are my world

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:icondark-angel1349: said the following:

:kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :heart: you more than everything:) *sm:kiss:sk*



And A Poem he write me :

:iconmr-e-: I love you, I really do
from ~Mr-E-
to =:icondark-angel1349: 332w 5d ago

I know I'm not good at showing emotions
I know I'm not always like you want me to be
I know I'm not always easy to be around
I know I'm not good at talking to you

But I do know I'd go to the end of the world for you
I do know that everytime your near me I feel great
I do know that everytime your near me my heart beats faster
I do know that everytime you smile to me I feel like the luckiest man in the world

I do know that I love you

And sometimes it feels like you don't know it ...

I only hope that one day I can take all your suspicion away and show you that my heart truly belongs to you and only you
I only hope that one day you wil let me love you the way your supposed to be loved
I only hope that one day you wil let me in ...

Yours forever
Jon


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  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Tom Mcrea
  • Watching: Six feet under
  • Drinking: FUN LIGHT TROPICAL

Tom Waits, Nick Cave, Women and Wine

Journal Entry: Thu May 19, 2011, 6:34 PM
:love:


I´ll shoot the moon right out of the sky, for you Baby

:love:




For ever. Every Breath I own is yours. You are my morning my night my every single living moment. I am you and you are me. And I am for ever and ever and ever yours :heart: She is the most perfect person I have ever known and the second she kissed me, I knew I was hers for all eternity. Here and in death. For ever.


She´s more beautiful than any woman I´ve seen :love: So sweet and scarlett and free


I've felt you coming girl, as you drew near
I knew you'd find me, cause I longed you here
Are you my destiny? is this how you'll appear?
Wrapped in a coat with tears in your eyes?
Well take that coat babe, and throw it on the floor
Are you the one that I've been waiting for?





We are the Mama and Mapa to the most beautiful being in the universe. Our daughter :love: :hug: :cuddle: :kiss:


:floating: You are a little mystery to me :floating:



But when I crawl into your arms everything it comes tumbling down


There she stands, this lovely creature
There she stands, there she stands
With her hair full of ribbons
And green gloves on her hands
So I asked this lovely creature
Yes, I asked. Yes I asked
Would she walk with me a while
Through this night so fast
She took my hand, this lovely creature
"Yes", she said, "Yes", she said
"Yes, I'll walk with you a while"





So I am lucky. I am Happy. And I am for ever thankfull for how happy I am. :faint:


Give me your loss and your sorrow




Min utrolige Familie


If it were but a matter of faith
If it were measured in petitions and prayer
She would materialise, all fleshed out
But it is not, nor do I care
Green eyes, Green eyes




Min elskede


Nothing's ever as it seems
Climb the ladder to you dreams
If I die before you wake
Don't you cry, don't you weep
Nothing's ever yours to keep
Close your eyes; go to sleep





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  • Drinking: FUN LIGHT POMEGRANATE

A C HA N G E O F S C E N E R Y

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 7, 2011, 1:56 PM
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SICK OF DEATHCHICKS

Journal Entry: Sat Feb 5, 2011, 11:03 AM
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  • Listening to: Puscifer - Queen B ( V IS FOR VAGINA)
  • Watching: A movie with Ingrid
  • Drinking: Alcohol free wine :) Vini Vidi
Right so even my 2 year old daughter is nodding and agreeing with her yes's. Cause her momma is down right annoyed.

Promises being the appropriat Journal skin, representing the promises made and broken. </sub>

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What happend to Death-Chicks, it was once an alternative site for all us deviant girls and even some boys who didnt share the same Glamor ideal as the pop fashion addicts. It was something to look forward too, to take to photos, just for Death-Chicks.
And now this past year all they admit is POP alternative photography. Their margin has thinned so much and they have turned into the "pop Suicide girl" culture headquaters.
..................................Stay, beautiful baby, by dark-angel1349........................................
And most of the admissions they have are payed for and printed fetish pieces, hence they are no longer helping the deviant glamor models of deviantart to express themselves, they are promoting the top cream that allready has made it in the industry.

I remember when that was EXACTLY what they were against, and when they we're fighting for the view rights of being different and beautiful and not fitting in to the box of astream fashion.
.................................Die of a rose in aromatic pain by dark-angel1349........................................
I don't why. and the art they do admit is ofcourse GREAT! But I've been a parcipitating member for well what 7 years and only this last year with a GREAT increase in my quality of equipment is it that everything I add is declined cause it's either TO gore, TO different, TO processed (which is fair enough but was never a rule before.)

And then after 7 years and now only getting fed up with never looking forward to submitting anything knowing, that it will get declined, I am going to end my stay at Death-Chicks. I think it's terribly sad. and I wish I knew why they have made these changes and left some of us loyal members on the outside. But they have and like everything in life, the past has faded away, and things we loved have lost their glory and place in our hearts.
.....................................Plague by dark-angel1349.....................................
Had I known this was to happen I would have ended my membership before adding about 50 photos over a year, to get every single one declined.

- Annie Bonham.

Sorry for the rant, but it was a Deviantart related heartbreak and I wished to share it with Deviantart.

F E A T U R E :
A FEATURE OF UNKNOWN AND ALTERNATIVE BEAUTY
That once upon a time :icondeath-chicks: would have been featuring

Zombie by alanrickman1fanDoll Haus III by philip-faithNew Edition of My Fetish Book by JonnyBlaze38Miss America by cameralikeagun
Faceless by ValentinaKalliasMistress Elaborate Dream24 by Mrs-MolotovMasked by Anomie-ModelBallet boot nude by Anomie-Model
Clear Spirit3 by HoneyhairFauve Lex Hair and Make-Up by Hart-WorxGriffin by VivianMckenzieHis madness by falt-photo
Sequence 1: Self Mutilation by Cee4CandyMy breath escapes me... by rink05Shouts and Bites by strangexreality
:thumb196280924:beautiful scars by aleensummersSashimi IV by philip-faith:thumb196270274:


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THIS IS HOW THAT MADE ME FEEL
TherE WilL Be BlooD


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I WISH I HAD A RIVER

Journal Entry: Mon Jan 17, 2011, 6:30 PM
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Journal Entry: Thu Jan 6, 2011, 12:27 PM
..............................:love: Happy New Year :heart:................................
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:glomp: I hope everyone had an amazing christmas and a great start on the new year, 2011 :hug:


Me and mine had a calm and snowy beautiful christmas and new Years :love: I was happy to be stable enough to be home the entire holiday :) But I haven't posted much here on Deviantart cause I have chosen to spend the energy I had on my daughter and my loved ones :)



Did anyone get anything great for Christmas?

I got lots of gift certificates to Ikea seeing as I start building my new house this month :) and in a year we will have moved into our beautiful new home :) I cant wait! :giddy: Also I am getting my best friend Melissa flown to Norway from LA this year :love: which will be amazing, cause I miss her so much and have felt so lost about not being able to fly over to huggle her :love:

My mr got me Michael Jackson's Captain EO :love: which I have been drooling over for ages :blush: and my daughter got me loads of stuff I suspect people have helped her with, but I LOVED my table cloth she had painted and packed in for me :) She got an ARMY of Zhu Zhu pets and things, house, boat, salon, fighting arena for them ;)





I have had a rocky time health wise this winter, not as bad as it could be, but enough for me to be away from well, the web and the most of the real world, and when I am in my worst times, I focus on spending all my time with the Light of my life, my little miss Athena who has really grown into a little lady this year, 2 years and one month old now, a real chatterbox and filled with smart ideas, and noone can brush my face and hug me tight like her when life is scary and hard :love: I am the luckiest girl in the world I am certain of that. She is a real angel :heart: I have nothing in heaven, cause my heaven is here with her :love: every waking second of my life is like a dream come true. She amazes, inspires and fills me with pride :heart:




.How Lucky We Are :heart: :floating: :heart:.

AAAnyway I hope you are all well :) :love: and that this year brings you many adventures and happy moments and remember that no matter what, Happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length :floating:

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My Other Works

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 29, 2010, 3:58 AM
This month I've been working alot with pieces of my closest friends and loved ones :heart:

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:bulletpink:My Stunning P.I.C Miss Ingrid:bulletpink:



:bulletblack:My Mr right Michaelangelo::bulletblack:


:bulletred: My Beautiful friend IMA:bulletred:


:bulletblue:My Amazing Flying Cousin:bulletblue:


:bulletblack:My breathtaking Best friend my entire Life :love: Heath :bulletblack:
:kiss: :love: :hug: :lick: :cuddle: :glomp:


And Please if you can ...

Pray a Prayer for someone who means the world to me and who is one of the people who saved me when I was so sick and in a coma :heart: She means the world to me and my daughter and her and her baby in her belly are very sick and in Intensive Care :sadangel: She is one of the best people the world will know and she deserves everything good in the univers, escpecially our prayers :heart: :heart: :heart:



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Tomorrow is 5 years

Journal Entry: Sun Jul 4, 2010, 10:48 AM
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So tomorrow it's been 5 years. I can't really even believe it. When Jon died I didn't think I was going to be able to live anymore. And for years I kind of didn't. I did so much that I'm not proud of, not bad stuff you know? .. but a friend of mine called it a spiritual holiday :blush:

Cause I've always been a very devoted christian. And God has had this amazing role in my life, leading me through pain and fire.

But Jon was an atheist. And I respected that so much case he was one of the most amazing people I've ever known. And his entire life was as good and amazing as God could ever have asked of him. So even tho he didnt know it, he was the best christian I have ever met:) He cared about everyone and helped everyone.. and it may have wore him out.. but I had nothing but the most respect and admiration for what a amazing person he was. And that he wanted to share his life with me. Was mindblowing, Cause I thought I was never good enough for him. And at the time I probably wasn't or he would still be here.

Forever forever together best friends by Mr-E-is a long time

But anyway 5 years. fleeting around the world, being everything I'm not. hurting people I should have loved cause it just didnt seem real. And I was to much of a coward to kill myself and made life hell instead of going there, maybe.... :heart:

Athena, she saved my life. litterarly. Hadn't I had her I would have died and I just know that on the beaches in Samos where I was staying at the time...  I went to the catholic church on the top of the hill every day praying. And I was reading The witch of portobello, and suddenly  I got this immense feeling I was destined to have this child. that I had to make her. I didnt know why and I was terrified.. until I was certain I had been called to have her. And it saved my life. And it gave me her to make me want to have the life I had been given as a new start :heart:

And here I am. A mother. to this beautiful amazing wonderful child. She has his blue piercing eyes, and blond perfect hair, and she's so tall and long and kind and  smart and loving and careful(she's so tenderly careful with everything she does, she's so much like him, (not Jon's child) and I have to believe God did that to keep me fighting.

My very art itself by dark-angel1349

Knowing that she needs me. and that I can teach her to make the world a better place. To guide her to her fate. to never give up. To always fight for the change and good in the world. And even the darkest places in life are there to guide us to make us grow and that one day this world will be clean of fear, fighting, hate. One day if we all teach our children from our mistakes, our lives. We can make a new tomorrow a new life. where people as amazing as Jon would never die, cause we dont leave anyone behind. And we have to take responsabilty for the fact that we are all family. that we are all humans. not races. not political parties. We are all exactly the same. born with the same start place. its that we forget that that is ruiining our world.

The bible says. We are one army.

Why dont remember this. that even a stranger is closer to you than you can even imagine. that we all have to love eachother and stick together. to treat everyone next to you, like you love them. cause you do. They are your brother. and they are your sister.


Us :heart:

Im going abit off to lalaland babbebling. scuse me.

I know Jon's with God now, because I know he told me this was going to be ok,and not to be scared. He held me in my dreams and kept me safe.

And when I was dead. He was there. And its been 5 years. 5 whole years. And I miss my coma. And I wish alot of times I was back there. cause there I could be with him. And feel that safety again. Cause being alive is so terrifying. Your always so stupidly afraid of dying.

And in my life that might be abit more real now .. since Ive been dead 3 times.. I know my luck is running up..

anyway Im babbeling. and telling alot about myself. and leaving out things that would make what I'm telling more understandable... :heart:

But .. ehm. 5 years.


I want so many things to be different .. but the only thing I really would want to change in life, is that I had been there, watching a movie on the laptop in bed. That he hadn't died. He could have said he never wanted to see me again, left me.  That would be ok. If I got a phone call today saying PSYCH!!! Im in Tibet! I'd be so happy. knowing he was in this world, and that his lap was there to crawl up onto when things are hard. Cause it's the only lap I've ever crawled up too... :heart: :blackrose: :heart:

But God and destiny doesnt work like that .. you never get what you ask for. But you always get what you need. and everything Ive done that was stupid. led me to Athena. And she is something celestial.

......I do Believe in Fairies by dark-angel1349

when I prayed for the virtue of patience when I was pregnant and afraid of being a over intense person who moved when the wind changed and fleeted from person to person promising them love I didnt have to give... That darned Bonham gypsy blood .. heh.. :bulletpink:

God gifted me with a coma .. a long one.. and he took away my memories so I only remember a highlighted version now of my life. and he let me be with Jon for a month ( and it felt like a lifetime, cause it was. I cant explain how a coma works but its like your alive just like it, but it goes so much faster you are anywhere, everywhere.. I remember everything from my coma, now in this life. and I dont always know if this is real. cause this is something I would do in my coma. Babble and cry cause Im scared of tomorrow. )

anyway I prayed for patience and I got a coma and got a long time to learn to write, then speak .. then sit up.. and then practicing standing .. and then I learnt to walk.. and I learnt that I had daughter all over again.. when I fell asleep she was 3 weeks old. She looked so different, so old. ... and Jon I miss you. And I have nothing but patience now. And I would a great girlfriend ..  .. now. :blackrose:

You were the only person I ever let get to know me, and the only person I felt like loved me for me ... and you're gone.

why the hell would you have left.

I wouldnt have my life now if not. and Im thankful for that God.
God, Dont misunderstand.. ( Then God probably cannot misunderstand )

But.. Jon ... I think he might be the only person who's ever really loved me.. and so much more than I will ever deserve. And I pray to God every night that  Athena , my daughter, will be a good person, a person like you. and I tell her every night about you.. cause we talk to the star sky that we project on the ceiling and we pray for the people we love that we name the different stars as, and I tell her about them, family, friends... the begger we walk by to church..

Love everyone. cause everyone is amazing to someone and never let them think that they are alone because they never will be. and when they called and told me  Jon had been found. and that stupid shot gun I told him not to own .. ... I just wish .. I wish he would have asked me. If I still loved him. Cause I would have never let him go. I would have held him forever and let him know. that He was my everything.

And Athena is now. She is my everything. I couldnt even imagine. mothers love is overwhelming. and God do I love her. She is.. perfect. from her dimples to stars in her eyes...

It's my future by dark-angel1349

It's just so complicated. cause Im so afraid of letting her down, of having to leave. cause every death has a lesson learned. and I know that could be a destiny too.

but I hope she never has to know.

So Jon? as long as God lets me Ill be here... And I want to be alive. And I'm so sorry for that. Cause .. A HUgE part of me would give anything to be there with you..

Im sorry you watched me get so sick.. Im so sorry I wasnt there enough for you when you were sad. Im so sorry I didnt tell you how much I loved you... Im so sorry I wasn't ready for everything you needed. ... Im so sorry that your dead and Im still alive. ..
and Im sorry that I didnt love you enough. Im sorry I didnt know how much you meant to me til after you were gone, I didnt even imagine I could love you as much as I do :heart:

Jon ? You'd love Athena.



Athena Just woke up from her nap. She's lying here now on my lap all warm and fuzzy.. with blue china eyes (those squinty eyes you get in the morning)And Jon I'm sorry... But 5 years.. I pray for 5 more... and know I miss you more every single day. And I cant wait to be with you again... (so hard to say) .. but I have to wait ... for my time ... :heart: :kiss:

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.


Love Notes:

:iconmr-e-: Wuw yu pwincess
from ~Mr-E-
to =:icondark-angel1349:
Thanks for a wonderfull :date: You have my :heart: and always wil :kiss: Love you so much :kiss: :kiss: :kiss:



:iconmr-e-: Re: (no subject)
from ~Mr-E-
to =:icondark-angel1349;
Your so sweet!!!!!! :kiss: :hug: :heart: :kiss: You are my world

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:icondark-angel1349: said the following:

:kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :heart: you more than everything:) *sm:kiss:sk*



And A Poem he write me :

:iconmr-e-: I love you, I really do
from ~Mr-E-
to =:icondark-angel1349: 332w 5d ago

I know I'm not good at showing emotions
I know I'm not always like you want me to be
I know I'm not always easy to be around
I know I'm not good at talking to you

But I do know I'd go to the end of the world for you
I do know that everytime your near me I feel great
I do know that everytime your near me my heart beats faster
I do know that everytime you smile to me I feel like the luckiest man in the world

I do know that I love you

And sometimes it feels like you don't know it ...

I only hope that one day I can take all your suspicion away and show you that my heart truly belongs to you and only you
I only hope that one day you wil let me love you the way your supposed to be loved
I only hope that one day you wil let me in ...

Yours forever
Jon


A Collaboration between sedART & petercui

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Goodbye my lover
  • Watching: The Fountain
  • Drinking: Nora's sugarfree cordial

One can pay back the loan of Gold

Journal Entry: Sun Jun 20, 2010, 4:40 AM


... but one dies forever in debt to those who are kind
dragons fly at midnight too by devilicious

:love: :heart: :love:
:heart: I am overwhelmed by the beautiful Gift I woke up to today :heart:
miss Devilicious, has given me a 1 year subscription.. :blush:
:love: :heart: :love:
:icondevilicious: :icondevilicious: :icondevilicious: :icondevilicious: :icondevilicious: :icondevilicious:
learning to fly by deviliciousdance with your dark side by deviliciousGOTCHA by devilicious
And not only is that a wonderful gift, but I've been a nerd fan of her for years,
princess by deviliciousMILF II by devilicious
Emote divider by moohug4Emote divider by moohug4
So I'm completely awestruck by the honor of a gift of support :love:
kitten by deviliciouscurious by devilicious
So I don't know how to say thank you .. But a photo of Athena from this morning dedicated to devilicious is a good start:D
Gratitude is the memory of the heart
:heart: :kiss: :heart:
--sticksandstones-- by devilicious


:iconrainbowheartplz1::iconrainbowheartplz2::iconrainbowheartplz3::iconrainbowheartplz1::iconrainbowheartplz2::iconrainbowheartplz3:


:iconflowerdanceplz::iconwoodleplz:!  N E W     W E B S I T E!  ! :iconwoodleplz::iconflowerdanceplz:
:boogie::icondorkdanceplz::iconflirtplz:  :heart: www.wix.com/AnniEBonhaM/PORT :heart:    :iconflirtplz::icondorkdanceplz: :boogie:


My Camera had a baby into the ground Crash And Bang Accident :blush: so it's off to repair :sadangel: and my computer is down, so I'm borrowing a laptop to write and post :love: So the posts I'm adding til its fixed will be some of the last months photos I never really went
through .. and some of my HTC Magics Magic :heart:

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You're in my stars you know by dark-angel1349 :thumb167132261: :thumb167135182:

DID AN A N G E L W H I S P E R I N YOUR EAR
:floating: And hold you close and take away your fear In those long last moments :floating:



  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Bryan Adams - This side of Paradise
  • Watching: The Sun through the clouds
  • Drinking: Indian Chai Tea - Lipton

U P D A T E D - N E W A N N I E W E B S I T E!

Journal Entry: Wed Jun 16, 2010, 10:48 AM


:floating: And hold you close and take away your fear In those long last moments :floating:

:iconflowerdanceplz::iconwoodleplz:! ! ! !  N E W     W E B S I T E! ! ! ! :iconwoodleplz::iconflowerdanceplz:
:icondorkdanceplz::iconflirtplz:  :heart: www.wix.com/AnniEBonhaM/PORT :heart:    :iconflirtplz::icondorkdanceplz:

My Camera had a baby into the ground Crash And Bang Accident :blush: so it's off to repair :sadangel: and my computer is down, so I'm borrowing a laptop to write and post :love: So the posts I'm adding til its fixed will be some of the last months photos I never really went through .. and some of my HTC Magics Magic :heart:

You're in my stars you know by dark-angel1349 :thumb167132261: :thumb167135182:

:bulletblack:This month My friend Ivar Byre Passed away, this last weekend :sadangel: :blackrose: He was an amazing teacher, amazing person, and a real fighter :heart:
I hope he's up in the heavens sailing on his adventures :love:
You'll be missed.. :depressed: terribly hard taking in that you didn't make it through the fight :heart: things wont be the same in our gang, you've left me all alone with the oldies ... :alphaosiris:


:sadangel: :damphyr:Rest In Peace:damphyr: :sadangel:

they say you can learn a lot from a persons garbage.. This is what I read in the news
Little bit of News & Feature Love :

:bulletred:The Gary Coleman story puzzles me.. having been on life support I totally get why you would want photos of it, its no different from  a wake .. But the slandery way it all came out and was portrayed.. it was distasteful.. then again its the buck tooth ex loony wife and the Globe.. it was a recipe for strange...
But it was Sad non the less RiP Gary Coleman
Celeb Mug Shot 1 Gary Coleman by PaulSpatolaGary Coleman Angel by Adult-Swim-ClubGary Coleman is God by UCArts

:bulletred: :love: YAY BACK TO THE FUTURE is being made into a Game! :love:
Back to the Future Blinkie by SuperFlash1980
:heart: That totally deserves a Back to the Future Feature :heart:
Back Off - I'm Doing Science by BWS Back to the Future by chibi-lilie Doc  from Back 2 the Future by 1KraftyN3rdGrl Back to the future by kromo


:bulletred: Bummed about Heroes being canceled.. :angered: How can you leave us hanging like that... :( ... :analprobestare: I feel a ..... HEROES Feature......:
:thumb54994674:
Heroes by pungangHeroes by MarcelPerezheroes by ewayHeroes cards: Hiro by lllaria


:heart: Keep making the world Magical, Paint it with your picture and we will create the new Creation! Deaviantarters? You all Rock!!!!!:headbang:

:blowkiss:

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Funk Capella
  • Watching: House season two
  • Drinking: Tea HUla GirL from Huset På Landet

DID AN A N G E L W H I S P E R I N YOUR EAR

Journal Entry: Thu Jun 10, 2010, 12:48 PM


:floating: And hold you close and take away your fear In those long last moments :floating:

My Camera had a baby into the ground Crash And Bang Accident :blush: so it's off to repair :sadangel: and my computer is down, so I'm borrowing a laptop to write and post :love: So the posts I'm adding til its fixed will be some of the last months photos I never really went through .. and some of my HTC Magics Magic :heart:

You're in my stars you know by dark-angel1349 :thumb167132261: :thumb167135182:

:bulletblack:This month My friend Ivar Byre Passed away, this last weekend :sadangel: :blackrose: He was an amazing teacher, amazing person, and a real fighter :heart:
I hope he's up in the heavens sailing on his adventures :love:
You'll be missed.. :depressed: terribly hard taking in that you didn't make it through the fight :heart: things wont be the same in our gang, you've left me all alone with the oldies ... :alphaosiris:


:sadangel: :damphyr:Rest In Peace:damphyr: :sadangel:

they say you can learn a lot from a persons garbage.. This is what I read in the news
Little bit of News & Feature Love :

:bulletred:The Gary Coleman story puzzles me.. having been on life support I totally get why you would want photos of it, its no different from  a wake .. But the slandery way it all came out and was portrayed.. it was distasteful.. then again its the buck tooth ex loony wife and the Globe.. it was a recipe for strange...
But it was Sad non the less RiP Gary Coleman
Celeb Mug Shot 1 Gary Coleman by PaulSpatolaGary Coleman Angel by Adult-Swim-ClubGary Coleman is God by UCArts

:bulletred: :love: YAY BACK TO THE FUTURE is being made into a Game! :love:
Back to the Future Blinkie by SuperFlash1980
:heart: That totally deserves a Back to the Future Feature :heart:
Back Off - I'm Doing Science by BWS Back to the Future by chibi-lilie Doc  from Back 2 the Future by 1KraftyN3rdGrl Back to the future by kromo


:bulletred: Bummed about Heroes being canceled.. :angered: How can you leave us hanging like that... :( ... :analprobestare: I feel a ..... HEROES Feature......:
:thumb54994674:
Heroes by pungangHeroes by MarcelPerezheroes by ewayHeroes cards: Hiro by lllaria


:heart: Keep making the world Magical, Paint it with your picture and we will create the new Creation! Deaviantarters? You all Rock!!!!!:headbang:

:blowkiss:

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Hurts me to say, but Alice - Avril Lavigne
  • Watching: House season two
  • Drinking: Wild Berries Fun Light

But a waking dream of life and light

Thu May 13, 2010, 1:22 PM



This month is a Black and white Month :) I think for 17th of may I will post one photo with some color in honor of Norways' national day  But this month I want  to be a B&W Month :heart:  

SoulFlower by dark-angel1349

I made Three new "The girl with a thousand Scars" pieces  I hope you liked them  I felt they said what I was trying to say :blush: and thank you sooo much to all of you for the amazing comments and support It means the world to me and I am so honored that you like them  :heart: :love: :heart:

Small B&W feature of some of my fellow B&W lovers in :iconcolourless-photos: :iconblack-white-club:
feeding fish by photoport Little cat by GenesisOfChaos Wedlock by AmpirikYansima

TGWTS is my autobiography. Chosen to be told by photos and parallels to the Hero, Element girl, No one knows who she is on the inside, and I want to show.

Its my body. Its my scars of who I am and what makes me me inside. please handle these photos with care.

Strength Power and Guts :heart: Lifes road bears many gifts
:blackrose: TGWTS XVIII by dark-angel1349 :blackrose:
:blackrose: TGWTS XIX by dark-angel1349 :blackrose:
:blackrose:  TGWTS XX by dark-angel1349 :blackrose:

:heart: Here on the following links are photos from the open transplant area... The red areas are open cuts all the way down to beneath the muscle tissue. with stapled on transplants from my thighs. Then photos first 2 weeks of healing transplant. Warning. gore. :kiss: c2.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/im… :kiss:

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Other than that I  have some new pieces up with soft make-up, feathers, lashes and all the luxury things us girlies love :heart:  The entire photo was set up by my 18 month year old daughter she did the powdering, the feathers, the lashes were her idea and the belt around my neck was also her decision  But I am amazed that she can sit and do this for over an hour and not one second come out of concentration, she was very determent on making me up, just like she sees me do usually for the photos

The pieces composed by Little Miss Athena
:thumb163749101: :thumb163632806: Cygnus atratus by dark-angel1349

Angel Athena


Random Facebook Love, Images from my facebook from May Start:D


:) :love: And Last but certainly not Least an amazing little B&W  Feature of the wickedly Awesome House/Laurie :love: :

Behind Blue Eyes by Wicked-Illusion Dr Gregory House by Cataclysm-X Hugh Laurie -House by michellebrown


Have a Lovely Weekend :heart:  I Love You Deviantart :love: You're all amazing :heart:



  • Mood: Bliss
  • Listening to: Katie Melua - The Flood
  • Drinking: Tea w/ honey

Walk Like a Zombie!

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 18, 2010, 12:37 PM
50 000 views :airborne: :airborne: :airborne:  :airborne: :airborne: :airborne:
Thank you so much :heart: :blush: :kiss: I love Deviantart So much
The only place in the world that understand my deviousness :P :) No but
what a place huh? to meet and exchange ideas with other artist, find
inspiration, love :dalove: I know that that I am so glad for Deviantart :love:

:boogie: :boogie: :dance: :boogie: :boogie: :dance: :boogie: :boogie: :boogie: :boogie: :dance: :boogie: :boogie: :dance: :boogie: :boogie:



:dance: Had an amaazing Weekend, MJ party with my friends which was just the Best, Spending the night with people I love, listning to music I love, watching This is It on Projector, with several friends who hadnt yet seen it!:D :dance: fantastic Night :heart:
And then Saturday I spendt with my bubbela :heart: as always heaven on earth:) and at night time we got Guro for a visit:) My friend Guro and we watched tele,chitter chattered and watched I love you, man :heart: And just had a delightfull evening :) And Sunday me and Athena chilled, played and had fun! :boogie: :D

:iconhyperplz:



:music: And you want a mountaintop ☠
With a little castle
And you wanna name our kids
Morticia and fester
And all the flowers you bring ☠
Are always dead
And you howl at the moon
But i don't care




ZOMBIE FEATURE :  
So drooling over Zombies this month. more than usual.
Zombies by IcedCoffee Zombie by SoftSpirit118 Zombie? by playxdead .:PSYCHO ZOMBIE:. by tainted-orchid ZOMBIE RISE by lora-zombie little zombie by Azu-graph My new lover by yaichino My Body's A Zombie For You by TenaciousBee Pink Zombie Girl by androidfink :heart: . by Asuka-chan55 :heart: Zombie Jessica by Neglectedmemories
:thumb159248914: Don't mess with the emote by HsnGoneWild zombie by Bad-Blood Chat Zombie Sighted Cap'n by Emotikonz Zombie Emote Attack by Srath47 Zombie - Emote by MDKofDOOM Zombie Grabin' Pumpkin Man by de-Mote zombie by crakaemotes


Made a Walk Like a Zombie Horrorpops insired new Piece this month:D


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:love::iconrainbowwaveplz1::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3: :love: :love: :iconrainbowwaveplz1::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3: :love:
:love::iconrainbowwaveplz1::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3: :love: :love: :iconrainbowwaveplz1::iconrainbowwaveplz2::iconrainbowwaveplz3: :love:


Easters been Fun Bård was home and dropped by, which was :love:! And Athena had a blast with eggs, chocolates and early mornings with dancing and singing :)

So April it is... Wow time is flying by so fast:) Hope you all have had an amazing Easter Holiday, Holiday or not, hope it was Great:) :heart:




:drunk: Love you Deviantart Have a great week :floating:  
:iconrunsiesplz:But first U better run before the bedbugs come bite:iconrunsiesplz:

I for real love these people:

:iconikissuplz::iconalbertofoto::iconspinplz::iconnightfairy86::floating::iconmr-e-::licking::iconpixelcoma:


I love You, You and .... YOU!!!!!


:iconfailsignplz: For the first time being here on Deviant I came across a person who for sport was making other Deviants sad. :iconwonsatyantonio: :iconwonsatyantonio: :iconwonsatyantonio:
He has not written me, most likely never even seen me. Probably not one of my 50 000 views :) And I'm thankfull. Because Deviantart does not need people like that. Hurting peoples' feelings for fun. I hope he soon wakes up and finds out just how  little his weiner is...

:iconwonsatyantonio::iconwonsatyantonio::iconwonsatyantonio: :iconfailsignplz:


CHEERIO! :dalove: And still I love you and YOU and .... YOU!:D :heart: thank you so much for the 50 000 view mark this week :) You are all such amazing artists! :heart: and I'm so glad to get to see your works :) :blowkiss:

  • Mood: Sweet

I'll Stand By You

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 8, 2010, 1:05 PM




:sing: When, when the night falls on you baby, you're feeling all alone,
You won't be on your own, I'll stand by you. I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you. I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

:iconhyperplz:




:love: :floating: :heart: :floating: :love: :heart: :floating: :love:
So I colored my Hair this Week .. Fun fun :) :heart:




Easters been Fun Bård was home and dropped by, which was :love:! And Athena had a blast with eggs, chocolates and early mornings with dancing and singing :)

So April it is... Wow time is flying by so fast:) Hope you all have had an amazing Easter Holiday, Holiday or not, hope it was Great:) :heart:



Feature :iconmashamaklaut: :
Amazing Work!
Purple poison by mashamaklautDiamond rain by mashamaklautShaman by mashamaklautqueen of hearts by mashamaklaut
Frozen.WIP by mashamaklautStrawberry girl.Before_after. by mashamaklautDangerous Beauty.WIP by mashamaklautShanti-Dragon.WIP by mashamaklaut

:drunk: Good Night Deviantart Sleep tight :floating:  
:iconrunsiesplz:U better run before the bedbugs come bite:iconrunsiesplz:

I for real love these people:

:iconikissuplz::iconalbertofoto::iconspinplz::iconnightfairy86::floating::iconmr-e-::licking::iconpixelcoma:


I love You, You and .... YOU!!!!!

  • Mood: Sweet

Break of Dawn

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 30, 2010, 3:16 AM
Note Me
  • Mood: Sweet

Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without U

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 2, 2010, 5:40 PM
Store
note me


:floating: Even if you are a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me
:floating:

Life is great and the song lyrics chosen for this Journal could be misinterpretated, but no Im not broken hearted, like Alicia Keys.. rather the opposite of Heartache :giggle: I was just sitting here going off to bed, but having trouble making myself go sleep in the cold duve overload bed alone :blush: and then my radio kicked in on 'Try sleeping with a broken Heart' with Alicia Keys and I thought Even if you are a million miles away, I could still feel you in my bed :heart: ;)

Feature Love for Monica Naranjo Art, seeing as Ive been listening to Tarantula all day, and I cant get enough of her :heart:
:)  

:thumb155298880: MONICA NARANJO Wallpaper by Medusa-Dollmaker Monica Naranjo by ismaelalvarez


:floating: And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear it inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me :floating:


:heart: Don't Stop, Make it Pop :heart:
!Yes I quoted that Ke$ha Song, its on the Radio right now!
:blush:Dont judge :blush:


my favorite killer by albertofoto forrest king by albertofoto Who let in the rain? by albertofoto



A new TgWtS set got taken a couple of days ago, I have to put them up :heart: So I will soon then :heart:


Konigin der Nacht by albertofoto Alicia Close Up BW by albertofoto Alicia, ex Miss Universe by albertofoto
Bose on stage by albertofoto Black bride by albertofoto Maya and Mariachis by albertofoto



And all the Feature Thumbs?
The Beautiful amazing  :iconalbertofoto: Alberto  :iconalbertofoto: He knows how to knock the wind out of you, his art is like a peek into how Angels see the world :heart: :heart: :heart:
Us by albertofoto



OoOk now Bad Romance, Lady Gaga came on, Night Deviantartia :D :wave:

:dance: :dance:


All you have to is look out for a little extra brightness in the sky. So if you wake up one morning and it's a particularly beautiful day, you'll know we made it :rose: - Sunshine [Movie]
  • Mood: Sentimental
  • Listening to: The Radio on my new cordlessheadset
  • Reading: The winner stands alone .... still :)
  • Watching: Heroes season 4
  • Drinking: Green Tea

Charmed, Enchanted, Ensorcelled and Confusicated

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 15, 2010, 12:20 PM


He did not need to ask how she knew his surname; she had taken it from him, along with certain other things, such as his heart, when he had kissed her :bulletorange:  Stardust :star: Neil Gaiman
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:heart: I hope everybody had a beautiful day this 14. February :heart:
Everybody deserves it

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:damphyr: My daughter just sat herself up here on my lap and I helped her put her shoe back on, then she cheered, JA! and went back down to waddle on the floor :D
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:flirty: Random Fav :frail: Beauty Love :flirty:
Linear Sunset detail by LaughingTreeColor by Numbers by Crypt-Angel:thumb16747239:
:thumb60509843:Patricia Velasquez cover by albertofotoEle by Blind-Star
moi juin 2007 by Pascalinoisland VI by mehmeturgutfairy tale by inessa-emilia
F Em Aaaaaaall by shinesfreshVulpine by shoujomeBaby K by TimelessImages

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This last month has just flown by... :floating:
Between Theology studies
My Daughter
My Mr
My art hobby :icondark-angel1349:
My Health dark-angel1349.deviantart.com/… dark-angel1349.deviantart.com/…

Time has just run away from me :D But it has been an amazing Month!

I won A house and Land in a country Lottery :) Worth millions of Kr which is still hard to even believe. A place for me and MY family to live and grow!

:heart:

I cant believe it. Its amazing. Its such a GREAT gift, my own new house, my own garden, my own 2 bathrooms and walk in closet! :o :eyepopping: Its mad, But thank you G-d SO much Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. It is a gift larger than I could dream up and knowing my daughter is going to have a house with no mortgage, no rent. Just a House to Dream in  :love:
Thank you G-d

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Mothers day and Valentines was great! I baked buns and we went to an antique fair and I got the cutest teddy from my Mr Dag :tighthug:

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How amazing is this Chick?!?:omfg:
:iconshoujome:
Vulpine by shoujome www.imagebam.com/gallery/75b6f… CATS - Video Bombalurina by shoujome
:heart: And this Kitten? :heart:
:iconyellowzebra:
Victoria, CATS the musical II by YellowZebraTugger from the musical CATS by YellowZebraBomba from the musical CATS by YellowZebra
Victoria the white cat by YellowZebra
If it happens the sun is shining bright
You would say we had nothing to do at all
We are resting and saving ourselves to be right
For the Jellicle Moon and the Jellicle Ball


:floating:My Favorite :iconalbertofoto: Artist in the entire world:floating:
Us by albertofoto

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  A Little Prayer

Lord, protect our dreams, because to Dream is a way of praying. Make sure that, regardless of our age or our circumstances, we are capable of keeping alight in our heart the sacred flame of hope and perseverance. And in order for this to be possible
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:iconkatrinapallon: And on the mention of Dreams :iconkatrinapallon:  art is like watching a sheet of plastic (polyester, nitrocellulose or cellulose acetate) coated with an emulsion containing light-sensitive silver halide salts Dreams floating by luckily caught forever in pixels for all of us to see :iconkatrinapallon:
What Keeps Me Alive by katrinapallon
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A rising demon by Art1349 :iconstock1349: A portrait by Art1349

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Now I need to go read the next chapter of Stardust to my Amazing daughter and tuck her in for Bed :love: And then Ill come back and recheck and push the Submit button

:blowkiss::bulletpink::teddy::bulletpink::heart::bulletpink::aww::bulletpink::giggle::bulletpink::kiss:


  • Mood: Sentimental
  • Listening to: Eivors Palsdottir :heart:
  • Reading: Stardust, again .. its so perty!
  • Watching: Familie ties seson 1
  • Drinking: Sweet Chai and Soy :heart:

Angels grow when you plant Angel dust

Journal Entry: Mon Jan 18, 2010, 3:56 AM





It's been an amazing Christmas. Wonderful people, places and food :heart:



I've had three pneumonia s this winter because of my transplants, but I'm all good now ;) And its a new year a new decade ahead and I cant believe its 2010! sounds futuristic, I remember when I thought 2001 was going to be like space odyssey 2001 :giggle:

Athena is growing so fast! She's up and walking, but she's careful about it ;) Holds tightly on to our hands but super exited about being up and walking :) She just grows more and more amazing every day :heart:




Last night she fell asleep on top of Dag and mes' faces squeezed in between us :) I can't imagine a life before this, cause this is just heaven :blush: Thank you G-d So so much :rose:



:rose: :love: :rose:


:heart: Dag :heart:

Photo wise there's been a couple posts, thanks for keeping a watch on them and thanks for the views and fave love :heart: :love: :heart: I dont get the same time to take photos being fulltime momma and student and mrs. But I get some done when I can :D
:thumb150803678::thumb150754459::thumb150395535:A Dream within a Dream by dark-angel1349:thumb146850940::thumb150448348::thumb146850387::thumb150723357:

:floating: Hit 45 000 views over the weekend Very much Thanksees :floating:

Weightless falls honeysuckle
Strangers (strange this)              
Lights from pages
Paper thin thing

Protected by the naked eye                  
Pearly sunrise

  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: Massive Attack - 100th Window
  • Reading: Jesus og de førsta kristne
  • Watching: True Blood
  • Drinking: Tea

Your supernova juice

Wed Dec 9, 2009, 6:10 PM
 



:heart: I haven't writtern here for a while :heart:

What's new?

Well my little princess is growing every second, she's tall now, she can waddle :giggle: she can sing and she knows so many words now we sometimes miss the quiet :love:



And then of course Im going to have to mention my mr. The man Im going to marry :heart: Dag :kiss:



Athena can say Dag now she sits on his lap going DAG DAG DAG DAG DAG :D poking him in the face :) He sings her to sleep but usually I fall asleep on next to them before she does :) she sits cuddleing :) Like mother like daughter :floating:

And School is a blessing, I get to wake up with the people I love everyday, go study something I look forward to every day, spend time with my friends that I can't believe are as amazing as they are and then I get to come home to my family and fall asleep holding my daughters hand, and my loves kiss goodnight to send me off to dream land :) :floating:

I took a shoot with my best friend, my sister :iconnightfairy86:  




:dance: Just some tiny tabs :dance:


:date: Oh well til Next time! TalleyHo! :D :date:
:blowkiss: :love: :blowkiss: :love: :blowkiss: :love: :blowkiss:

 
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Listening to: Tori Amos - Bliss
  • Reading: The winner stands alone - Coelho
  • Watching: Law and order S.V.U
  • Eating: Chewinggum tastey eucalyptus